A Word: Love, miraculously described in text Part 2

Some say when the mind connects with the heart there is no greater love on this earth. My soul began to connect the two and what no one had ever been able to tell before, was something I realized. The stuff of legends, that people dream of but never seek and achieve. As this completed I neared the top, the summit that I had strove for, for so long to reach. The light on the other side exploded in a blinding power. Everything seemed to slow, my breathe began to wain, my heart slowed, and my eyes fluttered to darkness. I stood not knowing where I was and began to fall back, floating down, gently. My lungs took in no more air, my heart would beat no longer, and the black clouds engulfed me. When my eyes fluttered open I was in an other worldly place. The lady of the mountain was face to face with me, floating in this dream state. Her soft voice, spoke the words, “I love you”. Torn and bleeding from the climb I returned the words, with no sense of tarnish, no ill. Again, everything went black and I crashed back into the mountain, but black it never would remain. 

Some say I was the man of legends that bound with the woman of the mountain to become one. I was the one who found the secret to the grand essential to happiness in this life, but it came with my death. The myth of my death some believe, but that is not true love unless it is apparent that I still live on. The greatest happiness ever was found and still exists to this day. The reason, all those who embark on the same climb will find. Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies, and now it is a single soul, a single love, and a single happiness that was once two bodies, now composed of one mountain, together in the revels of the climb. The climb, is what I hope for

My Hollywood Relationship: Part 9 The Storm

At this point in the story, my whole life seemed to be perfect. I was starting a great tech company, I had the girl of my dreams, and I could not be happier with the love that we shared together. To sum it up, life was absolutely perfect, and looking back on it, to this day I think those were the happiest few months of my entire life. I can only wish that any point in the future can hold that great of happiness. Enough with the sappiness though, it is time for the storm clouds to roll in and put an end to all this sunshine. Enter stage left, the rain cloud, give me a few good lightning strikes, and bring on the thunder. I hope you have a comfy seat and are buckled in, because we are in for some turbulence.

Part 1, 2, 3, 3.2, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 to get caught up on where we are at with this story.

 

Eventually she returned to Japan, and he returned to California, and they began the long journey and process of staying connected and in love until they saw each other again. Probably the most meaningful and dedicated thing they did, was to write one blog post about a quote or question they selected. This was quite the process, but it allowed them to learn more about one another in those four months than they ever learned about any other person. It showed true compassion for their relationship to go through that each and every night, and to share so much, with such strength or character and honesty.

The first three months, even though spent apart seemed to be going amazingly. The love that was being shared each and everyday was palpable, and incredibly touching. They were more in love than ever, and the intense happiness that they felt during the semester prior, and the wonderful memories they shared together seemed to continue deep into the summer, even while thousands of miles away. Until all at once it changed, and those feelings of happiness and love came to an abrupt end.

Those final couple of weeks seemed to drag on forever. Happiness and love turned into arguing, hurtful things being said, and little affection being shown. It all began with her disappearing one day, and they did not speak. When she finally responded back he was about to lay his head on his pillow and drift off into sleep, worrying about her, and her safety. Turns out she was fine, but didn’t want to talk to him anymore. Tensions were building, and pressure was being pushed on her for finding a job and starting a career. Apparently that left him as a second thought, one that she would return to without actual feelings of whether she wanted to still be with him. Their love, once an amazing tower, built strong and tall, now left laying in shambles, torn down, and left in a mess of rubble. He was left speechless, his seemingly weakening heart hurting more than it ever had. What had happened? He was not sure, and maybe she wasn’t either, but how would he know?

He had waited all summer for her to come back and be reunited with him, and now it seemed like that moment would, and shouldn’t ever happen. When the day arrived, he got into his car and made sure to get to the airport early so that he wouldn’t run into traffic, and he wouldn’t make her wait if she got there early. He had a whole romantic evening by the beach planned for when she returned, but he didn’t know if it would actually be worth it at this point, with her not even sure if they should still be together. Sadly, and almost pathetically, he was still confident in being with her, and that made it even harder for him to bear seeing her.Dust Storm Bringing in the Problems

He pulled into the terminal and there she was with her luggage in hand. They hugged, and kissed and seemed happy enough to see each other, but the feeling they had before just was not the same. He decided to continue on his romantic plan anyway, hoping that it would reignite that flame they shared just four months prior. It was a nice night out, but it wasn’t perfect like he dreamed. It led to arguing and wondering where they were actually headed, but they still managed to have a good enough time together.

It was the many weeks after that, that would prove the most difficult. All he wanted was his sweetheart back, the one he called the one, the one he loved with no end. She on the other hand thought herself to be a newly awakened individual, who didn’t want anyone by her side and no one to love. To him that was alarming, he was still reeling from the fact that everything changed 180 degrees in such a short period of time.

She was confused, about who she was, what she really wanted and where they would be headed. In just a couple months she would be headed back to Japan permanently. That would be an entirely different challenge. He knew she was struggling though, and he did absolutely everything he possibly could to make sure she was happy again, and loved him like she used to. At this point there was no happiness, no love, no affection. It was a struggle to get anywhere with the relationship and it was nearing it’s end. At any moment he thought that he would give up, and just consider the relationship to be a lost cause, but he kept going, doing absolutely everything he possibly could to make her happy.

She was not sure she wanted to continue the relationship when she returned to Japan, but he was confident they could do it. They just had to get through each week, step by step. He took her out often, and tried to do special things as much as he could to help her cope with everything, and experience the many great things that life had to offer. The first major milestone was making it to his best friends wedding when they would return to Colorado for a few days to celebrate in the love of marriage and a child, and strong friendship. That seemed to be a rejuvenating moment in their relationship, and things were back on track, but not the same as they used to be. It would take more time for them to really get back to what would be close to how they were before.

After the brief road trip they had together to visit his dad, and the time they spent in Colorado with his friends things really started to seem to get back to normal and she seemed happy again. It had taken a toll on him though. The endless effort made him exhausted. He still loved her dearly, but he just hoped that she would realize how much time he spent trying to help her get through those tough times. They finally seemed happy together, once again. Now there was just one month left in the semester and they had to make the best of it. He had done everything out of love, but now six months of a struggling relationship made him the skeptical one about what would happen when they left one another for potentially two years. Interestingly enough she was the one who was the one who wanted to make it work when they separated again. He did too, but knew that it was going to be very hard, and he needed to recharge his batteries soon. In this last month things seemed to be great again, and it all was happy. The scars were still there from the summer, but the strong happiness and endless love seemed to be back again. Just as his batteries were getting recharged, his trust was broken again, just two weeks before they would be separated indefinitely.

My Hollywood Relationship: Part 8 The Long Separation

As you may have read from my earlier posts, everything in this rather Hollywood romance story, has been just peachy and full of happiness. However, as with any great Oscar winning film, there must be a major climax, and some major problem that happens between the two lovers. Unbeknownst to them, it is time for that turn in the story, even when everything seems to be falling into place perfectly. Plot line for a story

Part 1, 2, 3, 3.2, 4, 5, 6, 7 for your enjoyment.

Heading into the summer they tried to spend as much time together as possible. It was the most amazing semester the two of them had ever had, and they never felt happier in their lives. They also began to talk about what the next four months apart held for them. They were going to try their best to make it through it, but she warned that she did not do well with long distance, and he wasn’t known for being the best either. Despite that fact though, they were committed to making it work and being at their happiest ever, they were going to stop at nothing to make it work.

The end of the year approached and it was a sad time, another bitter sweet time. Capping off the end to one of the greatest experiences of their lives, but getting ready to begin a new long and seemingly grueling strain of unending longing for one another. They said their long goodbyes at the airport, kissed passionately and then he left to go back home, and she returned to school until she would leave to go back home.

As a whim though, she decided she would come spend some time in his home state, and home town with him. He could not be happier, and he was waiting to tell her something that he had been thinking about ever since he had that flash about their future together. He wasn’t sure she felt the same way though, or whether or not she would accept how he felt and not leave him right then and there. When she arrived, it was amazing. They went to all the places that were so meaningful to him, and she saw the place of where all his stories and experiences originated from. She saw the final pieces of him, and really put it all together to see him for exactly who he was, is, and will be. He completely let her in, and he felt ecstatic about it.

A couple days later, as they were laying together in the small pullout couch at his mom’s house, he told her exactly what he had been thinking about. He told her everything about how he wanted a family with her, and how he never felt that about anyone else, and how he knew that she was the one, the one that you see in every romantic comedy film to come out of Hollywood. She was his fairytale ending. She harbored similar feelings for him, and they both lay there, tightly pressed against one another, staring deeply into the eyes of the other, with nothing but love surrounding them.

The last days she spent with him were amazing, everything that they had ever imagined. Unfortunately, this time they approached the the airport it would be a long time before they ever were able to hug, kiss, or share in a loving stare as they fell asleep next to each other, happy. These next months would be some of the most difficult for them, but they didn’t quite know just how it would end.

My Hollywood Relationship: Part 4 True Happiness

The saga continues tonight, as I lay down the fourth installment to this wonderful relationship. For all of you that are following, let me just give you a little prelude, this is when everything starts to get happy. Hang on to your shorts though, the happiness is only beginning, and we all know that there will reach a climax when everything falls apart. Until then, let us just bask in the happiness. Part 1, 2, 3, 3.2 are linked. Enjoy.

 

She picked him up from the airport, making him very happy, and they shared a long hug and a kiss when they got back to campus, despite her not wanting to show a significant amount of public affection. They had one more month before they would be separated for one month, and they had to make it truly count. He set off to make her truly happy, and after getting to know her, he knew what he could do, and knew that it would work, or so he hoped.

In her dorm room, there hung many brightly colored sticky notes, filled with quotes. Some inspirational, others thought provoking, and even others full of memories. He knew that each quote had a significance in her life, past, present, and future. Each day any one of those quotes could be the one little, stunningly bright, square reminder to keep pushing forward.

It wasn’t just quotes that made her the most happy, and inspired. It was the beautiful art of music as well, the melody, the lyrics, the rhythm, and the tone. It all resonated closely to her inner self. Because of that he knew that music was something that could really reach inside her and make her happy, from the core. Picking which songs though, would be a great task, it not only had to be something shared between the two of them, but something sincerely meaningful, in language and artful experience.

His first step was to set out to the one store he knew that would have the most meaningful gifts, complete with well thought out quotes, and something that could really tug on her heart strings. He stepped softly into the store, lit mostly by the natural light from outside. His first thought was to go to the cards, to find a card that really said everything he ever wanted to say to her, summed up in one quote. As he searched, turning the wheel around and around, reading each carefully and taking a moment to think how each applied to the moments and the affection they shared, he couldn’t choose just one. Simplicity in this instant was not something that was going to work well, it needed to be more meaningful, something that could last longer and really be cherished for some time to come. After an unsuccessful period figuring it all out, he came across an unsuspecting, pastel yellow book, small, but with a hard cover and a texture that felt unique, and memorable. In simple lettering on the cover, the words Happily Grateful were written. It seemed so simple, a full book of happy and grateful quotes, it was perfect. He read through the whole book a couple times just to make sure this was the one. It showed the exact feelings that he wanted to get across to her. Each day is meaningful, you should be grateful for each and everyday, happiness is not something that happens every once in awhile, it is something that happens constantly, you just need to know where to look to find it. He didn’t want to just let the book stand alone. There needed to be a touch all his own, and he had exactly that.CD Gift

The next week he spent keeping track of all of his favorite quotes, and the ones that related most to his feelings for her, and true happiness. After that week long spent figuring out the exact quotes he wanted to share with her, he decided the perfect ones and wrote them inside the cover. It may not have seemed like much, but to him that was the best way he knew to truly show how much he cared, and how devoted he was to making her happy, not just in the present, but forever into the future. After the quotes though, it was on to the CD. That he also spent a week putting together the exact number of tracks that would show a piece of him, how he felt about her, and some songs that were dear to her. At the end of the day, when the present was complete , it wasn’t the most amazing thing in the world. To anyone outside of the couple it would have seemed dull and not necessarily worth while. He hoped when she took the time to read through it and listen, it would mean more than any expensive, flashy present ever could. He wrote a little note to go with it and called it good, now just had to wait for the right moment to give it to her.

A couple days later she came over to his room, and as they sat by his bed, he pulled out the present and gave it to her, telling her that when she said she hadn’t been truly happy in such a long time, he set out to change that, and through this gift really hoped it would. In the little time that they had spent together at that point, he could feel such a strong emotional connection to her. It was different than anyone else he had ever been with, and he just wanted to be able to make her feel as happy as she made him feel.

They sat and talked for a little while longer, and she read through the book, smiled sweetly and gave him a hug and a kiss. Nothing felt better in his 19 years than that connection in that moment. Each moment after that would forever be better than each year prior. It was just special, and it felt right. Her small frame pressed against his, felt familiar even given the short time they had known each other. Which was incredible, never once had he felt that he was so connected and so familiar with a person, in such a short amount of time. After knowing her for just a month or two, laying next to her, looking deep into her eyes, it felt like they had known each other intimately for years. He couldn’t have asked for anything better.

Shortly after, they parted ways, and continued on with the rest of the semester gearing up to go back home. It was bitter sweet, in that moment they truly felt like a couple, even though they said they weren’t looking for a relationship, it just happened, and felt to be guided by fate, but soon they would be separated for a month. The true first test of this international relationship.

My Hollywood Relationship: Part 3.2

Not to keep anyone waiting too much longer for another installment I thought I would get one more out for tonight, before a bigger Part 4 tomorrow. Enjoy.

 

As things progressed, all he wanted to do was to make her truly happy again. She hadn’t been truly happy for quite some time and he knew deep down he could be the one to make her the happiest girl in the world, or at least die trying. He set out to figure it out, but before he had a chance they had a conversation. This isn’t the typical conversation that two individuals who are happy with one another have. She voiced to him that she was not looking for a relationship as she had just gotten out of one herself, and he voiced similar concerns, not thinking that he was ready for another relationship. He said this, even while secretly thinking to himself how disappointed he was that she was saying this. Even though they both said they didn’t want anything, he continued to make the effort to still spend time with her, and she did the same. The time went on and it seemed that they would actually be at the beginning of a relationship, just before their first break. He was going home to spend Thanksgiving with his family, seeing his dad for the first time since his heart attack. She went to some family friends not too far from school.

It was a bitter sweet return to home, having not been back in months, and constantly growing further and further away from what he once called home. When he arrived he stood in his room that he had grown up in, light on staring out into the dark street, the light post glowing through the window. He pulled out his phone and lamented about his feelings of being home to her, and they finally started to get to know each other more deeply. That next week they spent a lot of time talking, and getting to know each other, and he nervously admitted to her that he really liked her, beyond what a normal human being feels for another. She was the fruit blossom that would eventually grow into a wonderful fruit. Caught off guard by that, she didn’t know how to respond and wasn’t sure she wanted to let someone in that close to her. Another hiccup, but nothing they didn’t get past once he returned.